Monday, August 29, 2011

No Greater Love

Wow! I have been home for an entire week. I haven't posted in a while as we have been adjusting here at home to my limited activity level. Fred's FMLA did not kick in until today, so last week I was richly blessed with some wonderful ladies who gave their time to come and help me with William all week. What a true blessing and an answer to just many of our prayers.

I am now 23 weeks pregnant and I cannot put into words what that means to my heart. Although I never doubted the power of God, but while in the hospital, my doctors were always so quick to remind me they never expected me to make it past 19 or 20 weeks with Elizabeth. Boy, are we showing them Jamie style! However, I do realize, the fact I am now 23 weeks pregnant with a very healthy baby girl and so far my body is holding well is only a true example of the power of prayer and trusting in my Lord and Savior.

Although our journey ahead is uncertain and still scary, we are comforted in the peace we find in knowing we continue to fight for Elizabeth Grace. Early on, when this journey began and we were told at 5 weeks we would loose her, I told Fred then, as well as the ER doctors,"I will NOT loose my baby". As I entered for surgery just shy of 19 weeks, I told everyone in the OR, "I will NOT loose my baby". Once again, as I was admitted to Northside, I told my OB and my specialist, "I will NOT loose my baby". I have a determination about me, but that doesn't come without the need for prayer and the Faith to trust in His plan. My strength and determination daily are drawn from Him and His many promises to me, as His child.

Amber continues to be an amazing light in my life. Some days, I just look at her in amazement. Last week was a bit of a challenge in the evenings as Fred worked to juggle work, coaching, and the needs at home. Amber rushed in from school daily, went right into doing her homework, then jumped right in to helping with William. She spent countless hours in the kitchen doing the dishes, feeding William, playing with him, and helping me wherever I needed all while maintaining her schoolwork and dedication to church. What an amazing gift God gave me 15 years ago. Little did I know, how truly amazing she really would become as she matured as a young lady. I'm so proud of her and so thankful God chose me to be her mother, what an honor.

My home nurse has resumed her weekly visits for my 17P injections. She comes every Wednesday and checks my vitals, administers the injection, and of course, we get to listen to Elizabeth. As of now, she is scheduled to come next Tuesday, September 6th to administer my first steriod injection and again on Wednesday, September 7th to adminsiter the second injection along with my weekly 17P. Of course, the fact we are now able to get the steroid injections is a huge relief.

There are no words or a blog apprpriate enough for me to express our gratitude to all the wonderful people who have reached out to us over the past 5 weeks. Our journey has been and is continuously made easier through the many calls, emails, texts, meals, help, prayers, thoughts, and visits during this time. There is nothing harder as a mother than the feeling of helplessness when it comes to your children. As I continue to follow my doctor's orders and remain on bedrest, this is made easier knowing that the ladies who have come to help did it from their hearts. They loved on William as if he were theirs and he continued to smile and be his happy self all week. For that....I am truly grateful. Fred is now home and will be home through the first of October.

As each of you remember us in your prayers, I ask that you please remember the many mommy's at the local hospitals in HRP (High Risk Pregnancy) units as well as their precious babies. I am not alone in this journey. I only pray that each of them know our God and if not, may be touched through my blog and your prayers during this time. In addition, please keep my friend, Judy, in each of your prayers as she has now embarked on her third battle with cancer. She is a fighter and I know she's not going to stop fighting now.

Before I end, I want to summarize a little of what I have learned this far. Most importantly, I have learned never to underestimate the power of our God and the power of prayer. I have said numerous times, we consider it an honor He chose us to travel this journey, and it is a greater honor to share it with each of you. In life, it is easy to get caught up in the material things (clothes, big houses, nice cars, money, jewlery, work, etc.). However, at the end of the day, all of that can be taken away in an instant. What really matters is how much you loved those around you, how much time you invested in them, and the lasting legacy you will leave them when you leave this Earth. For me, I have come to know no greater love than the love I have for my children and my husband as well as the many family and friends that surround us. Greater than that, I have come to a closer relationship with my Lord and Savior. I'm not sure you can put a price on that, other than the price of eternaly salvation in knowing I won't suffer in pain or anger, I will only be able to see our journey as one of Love, Trust, and Faith. My prayer for each of you is that you find this same peace and enjoyment in life.

With Love,

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